Some nights are colder than others.

 Some nights are colder than others but not in the way that you think. The shiver of my heart is more rapid than the shiver of my teeth and when the chills run up my spine I dont think to wrap up in the embrace of something warm, instead I sit and hope the air runs past me. The rain tapping on my glass window only mimics the storm in my head drowning every incandescent thought to be shown. As I sit by my bedroom window, the tears of someone who fears what they don't know is a person who fears everything. The cold, the rain, the warmth, the affection, the overwhelming emotions they were never introduced to. Some nights are colder than others, unfortunately.

Embrace Me

 With your smile and your eyes

I can't help but be mesmerized

Warm Embrace, Your voice so sweet

Wickedly gorgeous

Looks too compelling to compete

The radiation of personality seeping off of you like honey nectar

Cuddles on the couch are fun but kissing would be better

A million miles away

I'd wish upon a star

That one day 

You wouldn't be so far

Club Ayeo?

So me and the pals been thinking about starting the club? Something with Horror because we all like it. We don't really want it to be something related to school though soo we're working out the details but I'm excited to see where it goes. We hung out the other night at my place and we're thinking about making a blog like this one where we do investigation type content. Were thinking the name "Cryptic" but its still in the works. Thats all for tonight! 

Valentines day

 OKAY. SO TELL ME WHY. I WOKE UP. AND THIS WOMAN. THIS BEAUIFTFUL WOMAN. SHE MADE ME A BIG ASS BREAKFAST AND GOT ME A TEDDY WITH MY NAME ON IT WITH GLASSES. I LOVE HER SO MUCH. 

See my plans were later on that day for valentines but I didn't expect her to love bomb me 9 in the morning haha. She even got me starbucks after my exam too. We havent really taken valentines day too seriously since our Junior year of higschool. I mean we still go out for dinner like every other couple but THIS YEAR she surpized me and now I feel a little bad that I didnt do as much. Around sunset I took her to Browns Island and we had a picnic. She said she loved it but like she SPOILED me all day. NOW I have the urge to spoil her but I wanna catch her off guard. In summary, I have the best girlfriend in the world and I am helplessly in love with her lol. 

Movie Night

Brooke came up with an idea that we should have a movie night. We decided to do it at Nox’s place since he didn't want to leave his siblings alone on a friday night. We went for the oldies because why not, first we watched Jeepers Creepers 2. Which honestly gave us a good laugh, the concept is horrifying the characters make the movie much more comical than it needs to be. Gave a few scares to the kids, I think thats when we all realized the twins, Jayden and Jordyn, were not fond of scary movies.

Picnic?

 For the past few weeks, I guess I've made a little group of friends. Me, Brooke, Payton, Nox and Kirean. We've been hanging out almost every week, of course everyone schedules everyone can make it to EVERY hangout, but yesterday everyone had that opportunity. Brooke's friend, Nox, the one with purple dyed hair, decided to hold a picnic at Libby Hill Park. It wasn't too early in the day around 11am, brunch hours I guess. We we're the last to arrive, and everything was so peaceful. Kieran has brought the drinks, teas and lemonades with a singular bottle of champagne. Payton brought cupcakes and fruit and we brought the chips, plates and napkins. While Nox made us Catalinas, Banh mi, spinach dip and salad. To be honest, that was the most fun I've had in a while. We took a few photos so I'll post them here for memory. Signing out!

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 Personally, hanging out with my co-workers isn't really fun to me. I tend to avoid and decline work parties often, in the most kind way of course. Most of the other interns are way older than me, and for some seeing a 20 year old accomplish more in a year than them as they’re reaching their mid-life can be disheartening. Yet there I was, at a bar on brookland park boulevard. 

“Goodness John, maybe if you kept your pants on your wife wouldn't be shoving her head in your ass.” Michael laughed as John downed another bottle of hennessy. I snickered to myself watching Michael start to wheeze as Amy put her hand on John's shoulder. 

“Michaels got a point there, you dug your grave mate. Now you got to lie in it.” Amy sighed, patting his shoulder as John groaned, laying back against the bar island. I rolled my eyes at the conversation. My co-workers and I decided to grab a drink tonight to have a bit of fun. I took a sip of my beer as I watched Michael beginning to wheeze off his drunk laughter.

“Well shit, A man needs a break sometimes. I’m not going to lie to you that ass was just calling to me. I never touched a fatter ass than that one. I'll tell you that much. Michael burst out laughing hysterically on the verge of tears. Amy rolled her eyes, taking a sip of her Margarita, disappointment apparent on her face as she whispered towards me.

 “I really don't understand this guy sometimes, I’ll take a wife that loves me over a fresh piece of ass anyday,” she scoffed as she watched him down another drink. I shook my head, feeling my phone buzz. I looked down at the screen seeing Brooke’s photo. I hummed opening her text as I responded to Amy,

“I guess some people don't know how much they have until they lose it.”